Babalawo Saint Benedict, confessor, tell me your secrets and free yourself

Throughout our lives, we've done things that no one close to us knows about. Even if we're caught, we can deny it, and through that denial, we manage to deceive and lie to the people around us. And in this way, we escape, believing it won't matter in time.

Unfortunately, we can deceive and lie to everyone around us, but we can never deceive or lie to ourselves. If we believe in God or divine justice, we constantly tell ourselves that one day we will have to pay for the wrongs we've done.

When something bad happens to us in our lives, like losing money, losing our job, getting hurt, having some kind of accident, when we make mistakes for which we pay a high price, if our partner leaves us and we feel alone, or anything that makes us suffer or feel bad, we immediately think... I'm paying for having done such and such a thing in the past...

The worst part is that if a similar or more serious situation happens to us again, we start thinking and believing that we are still paying for having done such and such things in the past... And so we go through life paying again and again for exactly the same thing, coming to believe that we do not deserve to be happy or to advance in our timeline in a calm and happy way.

If we experience a serious illness or severe physical pain, it's because we're still paying the price for our past mistakes or for having done irreparable harm to someone. And once again, we live under constant suffering simply because we accept that what we're experiencing at that moment is the result of so-called karma... and divine justice has arrived.

The emotional burden and memories create a very loud noise in our minds, like the sound of a constant drill when remembering all those unpleasant moments we have experienced.

Even our childhood memories hurt us when we recall the injustices or mistreatment of others toward us.